I'm so hurt right now that even all the words in the world aren't enough to describe how much it hurts. Some days I think I'm healing, but it's just my body and mind lying to myself.
I think I need help.

My anxiety it's killing me, I'm deeply hurt, my mind is crazy, I don't know me anymore. I think I'm losing myself. Fading.


My soul hurts, It's a physical pain, every piece hurts. Living without you is a living hell, I have to admit, and it causes me nauseas knowing that I can breath without you.


I don't want to live in a world where I feel, in a world where I don't have the capacity to make you stay. You will never know how much it hurts, how much pain exists on a body than when you see the person you love, love someone else.


Why you did this to me?
I can't even look at her, at you, and you know how much I adore looking at you. She has half of me. Why do you leave me alone knowing that my love for you goes beyond this whole universe.


Why do I still love you? After all these years, I know that every time I see you I will fall in love, over and over again. In good or worst right? I think that when you truly love someone you can't let go, you never let go, you just lie to everyone. But you will always love.


You know.. I miss the texture of your hair, Your skin, god your skin, you know how much I love to touch you, always finding a new way to touch you, only god knows how just a touch could change everything.

I miss you so bad.


I don't have nothing, every little detail about you. I still keep staring at your closed window, like you always left her.


You broke me but you know that you're the only one who can heal me.
You know that I don't need nobody else, that I prefer being alone if I can't be with you.


I don't know how to stop or slow it down.


I don't wanna never see you on the street with her. Don't you miss me? Her hair it's not even like mine.


You were my home.


Looking at you, the only thing that made me feel so alive and now.. Just make me feel so hurt. Touch. Touch is impossible right now. 
You will never understand, you can't.


Why do you feel for her and you can't have the ability to feel for me.


I miss you more than words and people would ever know, the weigh is too much.


One of these days I will break, I know that.


How did I became so weak.
I feel hopeless.


I know you better than myself, I told you that nobody will never love you the way I loved, and love you. You are my half, too bad that I'm not yours. You know that you're the love of my life, so why don't you come back?

13:13

É uma dor insana, meu deus, é.. É uma vontade enorme de respirar, mas estou a afundar, torna-se insuportável, torna-se doentio, difícil..
Sinto que o tempo é meu inimigo, eu quero que ele passe, sinto uma necessidade de ficar melhor mas ele vai contra as ordens do mundo,  passa tão devagar, uma pessoa percebe, sofre e cresce. Podia passar mais rápido.
Sinto que a ferida está cada vez mais profunda em vez de curar, isto é tão difícil, que se pudesse usar todas as palavras do mundo para descrever a dor que sinto no peito elas seriam insuficientes, é indescritível.
Duas vezes.
Tu prometeste.
Mas o que são promessas? Nunca me ias abandonar e agora estou sozinha.
O amor que sinto por ti é de outro mundo, a raiva que estou a criar é bem presente, a dor que alastra também.
Eu preciso de ajuda, eu não consigo fazer isto sozinha.
É tão triste dizer que tudo o que sobrou de ti não passa de um bocado de tecido, uma saca com o teu cheiro que me lembra tanto a primeira vez.
Dou por mim a chorar até de olhos fechados quando vou dormir.
Deixaste-me sozinha.
E eu não me consigo conformar com isto tudo.
Magoaste-me, mas ages como se eu te tivesse magoado.
Tu sabes que eu vou sempre amar-te.
És o amor da minha vida.
Eu desprezo-te mas amo-te tanto.